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Summary: Two men, one with a past and one determined to give them a future. Mick Flanagan has kept himself hidden since his only lover died three years ago. He works at night, keeps to his routine, has impressive facial hair and avoids contact with other people as much as possible. Enter Ceri Llewellyn, with his constantly changing rainbow-colored hair, who, for reasons Mick doesn’t understand, seems determined to talk to him. Gradually, Mick reveals his traumatic past as he begins to trust Ceri enough to shake himself out of his entrenched routines. Ceri Llewellyn has no idea why Mick intrigues him, but he determines to bring this shy man out of his protective shell, especially when he discovers they share a mutual love of all things Doctor Who. Ceri faces his own turning point, a moment when he must decide on his future. The more time he spends with Mick, the more he realises he wants Mick to be a part of this new life. Can Ceri show Mick he’s his perfect companion, give him the new beginning he needs and, above all else, help him find his true self?

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Summary: An FBI agent with an attitude about his assignment. A civilian witness to a terrorist plan in need of protection. A mole within the FBI ranks that endangers them both. Civilian Mark Beecher overheard portions of a terrorist plot and is in need of protection. What FBI Special Agent Aaron Pearce thinks will be a simple babysitting job ends up more dangerous and life changing than he could have ever anticipated when an informant within the Detroit FBI office sends them on the run. With no one to turn to, they hole up in a loft apartment and attempt to unravel the terrorist’s full plan from the bits and pieces Mark overheard. Working together within the confines of the loft, the two grow closer and their attraction eventually erupts into passion. But the informant is determined to find them, and when he does, Pearce is taken hostage. Now on his own, Mark realizes their roles have been reversed, and he is forced out of hiding—and his comfort zone—to try and save Pearce’s life. Holed Up is an opposites attract, forced proximity, FBI and civilian mystery thriller that kicks off the Up to Trouble series.

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Summary: A rowdy superstar in danger. His resentful new guardian. It’s hate at first sight until love takes an unexpected encore.   Closeted actor Owen fears failure and betrayal. So after he’s stabbed by a crazy fan, the movie studio offers a hunky bodyguard for protection. Suspicious that the ripped security man is just a gossip-seeking plant, he pushes back at his bulging biceps, ignoring the chemistry.   Newly retired SEAL Jamal is having a hard time adjusting to civilian life. Reluctantly taking a Hollywood job for a bad boy with tight abs, he’s sure the star is simply paranoid. But when he discovers the sexy celebrity is in serious jeopardy, he doesn’t hesitate to jump into action mode.   As the peril hits closer to home, Owen finds himself falling for the handsome hero fighting for his life. And as the threats intensify, Jamal fears he might lose the man he has come to love.   Will Owen and Jamal go down in a catastrophic climax, or will they star in their own happy ending?   Hollywood Lighting is the red-hot first book in the Bodyguards M/M contemporary romance series. If you like tortured heroes, intense predicaments, and steamy affairs, then you’ll adore J. V. Speyer’s tale of LGBT passion.   Buy Hollywood Lighting to let desire take centerstage today!

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Summary: When Martha returns to the homestead after five years away at school, the excitement of her arrival is somewhat overshadowed. There's a new pack in town who appear friendly enough but something about them raises both the Alphas hackles. But any reservations about their new neighbors don't stop Martha from falling for the charms of the handsome wolf set on seducing her. With his stubborn daughter intent on giving up her future plans, his youngest son out of control and Ephraim not doing much better, Caleb struggles to keep his family together, risking his relationship with Jacob in the process. And, of course, the surprise guest that Martha brings with her doesn’t help matters either. And as for Martha, her whole life has been an adventure of books and learning, until Albert captures her heart. But while she wrestles with her feelings, there’s a constant presence waiting in the wings. Someone that will catch her if she falls. Someone that always has, and always will. If she’ll let him. No matter how far you go, there will always be a home for you in my heart. 70+k words **This book is not an MF romance as such, despite one of the story lines having a female protagonist. It is a continuation of the gay family series.

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Summary: What’s a straight guy to do when he falls for his new friend? Paramedic Connor Devlin is a stressed-out tower of a man. Hoping knitting will help him unwind, he visits a local craft shop, where he’s overwhelmed by the yarn selection but more so by his feelings for shop owner Judah. Judah Bissel is tired of falling for unavailable men. He can’t help his crush on Connor, though, or wanting to get closer to the big, gentle bear. And that just might spell trouble because pining for straight guys is not Judah’s style. As a blizzard pummels the city, the men hunker down together to wait out the storm. When the spark between them ignites, will the revelation that Connor feels more than friendship for Judah bring them together or tear them apart? Hooked On You is a 72.8K friends-to-lovers MM novel. It features a stressed-out paramedic who’s figuring out he’s not quite straight, a yarn shop owner with a bad habit of falling for unavailable guys, lots of knitting and snowdrifts, and a sweet, happy-sigh HEA.

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Summary: Louis thought he had it all figured out. He couldn’t have been more wrong.   If you ask Louis, he’s a rock star. Just the right amount of sarcastic, cute, and only slightly delusional. He attends the best high school — in Paris no less — has the coolest best friend and the fiercest girlfriend, and he’s absolutely, a hundred per cent straight. So no, Michael, the new British student, with his dark curls and sweet smiles, doesn’t interest him whatsoever. And when a teacher pairs the two to write an essay together and Louis gets all worked up about it, he can always tell himself he doesn’t have a choice. Slowly and inevitably, the two of them become friends, and perhaps a little more. Soon, Michael's presence in Louis's life makes him question everything: his lifestyle, his friendships, and whether he actually ever liked girls.     I Want To Kiss You In Public is a story about friendship, self-love, truth and heartbreak, sprinkled with over-the-top comedy, suitable for fans of Skam, Sex Education and Boyfriend Material. Please check out the content warnings before reading. The Colette International characters act like teens in many ways, including the unsavory ones; such as cussing, drinking, and making mistakes. Influenced by Japanese Boys' Love stories, the series are also unapologetically cartoonish at times.     Information: This novel was reedited and updated in Feb 2023. The ebook version also contains an extract from Colette International Book 2 as a bonus. Readers who purchased a previous edition with important quality issues can now update their copy in their Amazon "Content and Devices" account settings or re-purchase it from their favourite online store. Alternatively, they can download this newer version for free from the author's website.

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Summary: Dawson Wozniak has lost both parents and a relationship in the same year. After working remotely in Mexico as an editor for a West Coast publisher during the Covid pandemic, he makes the big move to stay in the seaside town known for its beauty and festivities and pursue his goal of reinventing himself. He purchases a condo on the edge of the jungle and makes new friends. One night during a raging thunderstorm, he has an encounter with an iguana, engages in a stolen kiss, and witnesses a tragic death. The events are forever stuck in his head. Everyone around him wants to move on from that night, including Ivan, the divorced father with whom he shared the kiss. Dawson makes decisions that complicate his life and Ivan’s who finds himself in web of psychological and moral dilemmas. Despite the complications, Dawson believes there was something in that night that drew him to Mexico in the first place and he refuses to let it go. The enigmatic attraction between the two men finds its own tempo and they keep coming back to each other against all odds. In the quiet times they discover a refuge from the turmoil of their lives.

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Summary: In one day, Dylan’s whole life was destroyed. In one night, he may have found the beginnings of a new one. Still grappling with the loss of his home, Dylan has no choice but to head for Wintervale. His one solace is in travelling the same direction taken by the enemy. But the truth behind the attack on the spellster tower suggests things aren’t as clear-cut and the enemy may well be closer than they thought. Crossing the kingdom also means remaining in the presence of Tracker, the King’s Hound who Dylan’s repressed desire refuses to let out of his head. The man’s gentle protectiveness, coupled with his flirting, certainly doesn’t help. It taunts him with ideas of the night they shared in the tower becoming something more, a thought that is no less ridiculous than remaining unleashed. After all, it’s a hound’s job to escort or kill spellsters. They do not disobey orders. They do not falter. And they do not fall. Especially not in love.

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Summary: NBA Superstar CJ Wright is still lying on the floor, unconscious, with blood gushing from his body. As he edges ever so closely to death, he continues to recall everything that brought him to this fateful day. In this segment, CJ enters his senior year at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill, where he deals with the issues of his lover. He engages in new life experiences that come back to haunt him. As CJ moves to the NBA, he is thrust into the life of the rich and famous. While things look good on the outside, he still battles the internal demons of his past. As CJ finally starts to become ok with his new reality, a situation disrupts everything, abruptly changing the course of his life. Join CJ in the second entry of this trilogy, as he comes into adulthood, and encounters more twists and turns that help to bring him to the unforgettable day of January 11, 2011.

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Summary: Stefan Baronoski is on top of the world. He’d got an amazing husband. He’s killing it on the ice. He’s providing for his parents after they sacrificed so much to help him chase his dream. What else could he possibly want? His husband, as it turns out, could think of a few things. Antonio Pisano has always supported Stefan’s career, but he’s lonely and miserable. What good is the hockey spouse life or the stacked bank account when his husband is always either on the ice or on the road? What is there to love about starting over in a new place every time Stefan is traded? Their open marriage kept Antonio’s bed from getting cold for a while, but the only man he craves is the one who’s never there. Maybe it’s time to let go. Then an injury benches Stefan. With the two of them home together for weeks—possibly months—this just might be the chance they need to remember why they fell in love in the first place. Or a chance for Antonio to get his hopes up only to have his heart broken all over again when Stefan returns to the ice. It’s now or never. If Stefan doesn’t figure out how much he has to lose, Antonio won’t be the one left in the cold this time. Injured Reserve is a standalone contemporary gay romance novel with a guaranteed happy ending.

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Summary: Jeff Holloway is a twenty-five-year-old skater with a killer smile and lots of free time on his hands. He’s also a vampire who prowls the dark corners of San Francisco looking for entertainment and his next meal. Lately, he’s been spending lots of time watching a tattoo parlor in the Mission District, where someone tall, artistic, and handsome has caught his eye.

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Summary: Jesse Peterson is 26 and loves his job at a pet store. He loves the cats, the dogs and Sniffles the rabbit. What he doesn't love is the way people assume that he can't look after himself, that he's isn't a man. So, when the store's newest customer, buying supplies for his kitten, asks him out, Jesse has trouble understanding why. Jesse knows he's not stupid, but nobody else seems to know that. They just see a good-looking young man whose smile seems to be the brightest thing about him. Drew Oliver isn't other people. A high school teacher with a history of bad relationship choices, Drew is patient, loving, and doesn't care that Jesse is different. He just cares about being able to make him smile as often as he can. Everyone seems to have an opinion about the differences between Drew and Jesse, few notice the things they share. Can their relationship survive the scrutiny and judgement passed by everyone around them? And when one of Drew's bad choices shows up, will love be enough to help them survive the aftermath?

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Summary: Hateful words and eight years separated Joey from his family, but a shocking discovery changes everything. After avoiding his hometown for years, Joey Waters reluctantly returns for his parents’ anniversary. Within moments of his arrival, he’s confronted with the ghost of his past: Patrick “Trick” Harrison, the man who’d shattered his heart with just a few cruel words. Joey believed he’d left those painful years behind, but seeing Trick again ignites a whirlwind of emotions he thought he’d buried. As old wounds break open, Joey is determined to ignore the man who’d caused him so much pain and sent him on a downward spiral in his college years. However, a staggering revelation about Trick forces Joey to reconsider everything he thought he knew. Can the two men overcome their troubled history, or will the scars of the past keep them apart forever? Tags: enemies to lovers, brother's best friend, Trick's secret, mm romance, gay romance, Joey's first love, jealous ex-lover / stalker, off page unalive reference, anxiety and depression, tattoos, family reunion Joey's Trick is a brother's best friend / enemies to lovers 33k word novella. There is, as always, a HEA in the cards for my two characters.

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Summary: Joey Harkin keeps a low profile. He goes to work each day, keeps to himself and makes sure nobody notices him. It's the only way he can be sure the man who has tortured him for eight years won't find him. The only way he can be sure he'll be safe. Everything is calm in Joey's life, until he's summoned to the Managing Director's office. Rick Southwell is a successful man. Smart, attractive, wealthy. He has a close circle of friends and when he needs something more ... stimulating... there's always The Club. There is no shortage of men there willing to act out whatever scene Daddy Rick asks for. He has no interest in anything deep or permanent. Until the night he has to rescue Joey Harkin - the man he has just promoted - from being beaten up. Bit by bit, Rick learns Joey's story. Day by day his desire to protect and care for Joey grows stronger. Little by little, he falls in love. Getting Joey to trust him turns out to be the easy part. Getting Joey to let go of his fear and embrace his new life is much more challenging. Joey: The Complete Unabridged Story brings together the Joey's Story trilogy, newly edited and expanded, with never before released material. It is a stand-alone novel of more than 100,000 words featuring age-gap, mild kink, and hurt comfort themes. TRIGGER WARNING: This book contains reference to domestic abuse, both physical and mental.

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Summary: When Dexter Appleton’s best friend Huck commits suicide, it damn near kills Dex too. Huck was a bull rider with a crazy life, and leaves behind a big house, and a ton of unanswered questions. But Dex is just a simple guy, just a Texas redneck trying to scrape together a life, and he can’t handle much more before he breaks. Cyrus Hughes is a professional Dom. He’s shocked to learn that Huck is gone, he’s met with Huck twice a month for years, and didn’t expected to miss a client so much. When he heads to Texas to pay his respects, he instinctively feels protective of Huck’s anxious and unlikely best friend, Dexter. The attraction between them grows, even long distance, until Cyrus insists he needs Dex with him in New York. Clinging to his last bit of hope, Dex takes a leap of faith and moves what little he still owns in with Cyrus, hoping to find his place is in the world, and learn how to love a lifestyle Dom. Their path is full of trial and error, adjusting expectations and discovering how they fit together. Cyrus and Dex try to smooth out the rough edges and create their own family, one where Cyrus hopes to convince Dex that he’s not “just” anything.

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Summary: Casey Preston is the guy with the plan. The list-maker. The one who micromanages his own life. Spontaneously offering to be his best friend’s fake boyfriend to get Ethan’s annoying team captain off his back? That’s not thinking things through. It’s not even smart given Casey’s been fighting his feelings for Ethan for years. Ethan Rain just wants to play hockey and get his college degree. Adding a fake boyfriend to the mix? He doesn’t need that complication. If Casey were his real boyfriend, though? If he got to keep Casey forever? Now we’re talking. But what if Casey doesn’t want to be kept?

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Summary: Da solo in Giappone, Finni lotta costantemente contro la sfiducia, l’isolamento e la xenofobia che incontra ogni giorno sul suo cammino. Sente la mancanza della sua casa e della sua famiglia. Il nervosismo gli procura il riacutizzarsi di tremendi incubi e, soprattutto, nel paese del Sol Levante il Natale non sembra neppure Natale. Non per come lo intende lui, almeno. Dispiaciuto per la tristezza che vede aleggiare intorno al ragazzo, il suo coinquilino Mamoru si offre di fare le veci della sua famiglia durante la cena della Vigilia, senza però rendersi conto di quanto quell’accordo cambierà completamente il loro rapporto, perché ciascuno nasconde a suo modo segreti all’apparenza inimmaginabili.

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Summary: A bond they thought couldn’t be broken... Lord Morgorth, Dark Mage of the North, has never felt so far away from his precious mate as he does now. Still reeling from the events of a month before, Aishe struggles to come to grips with what the dream demon did to him while pretending to be Morgorth. For his part, Morgorth is haunted by the chilling vision the Mother sent him while he traversed Dreamworld—a vision where he kills the one most precious to him. Due to that knowledge, he knows he must choose his magick or his mate. A choice with devastating consequences... When Morgorth goes missing, Aishe must search for him, frightened that he has lost his mage forever. In his heart he knows they were meant for each other and refuses to allow his own horrid memories to tear them apart. But when he finds Morgorth he is stunned to realize that Morgorth doesn’t remember him. In fact, in Morgorth’s mind, he is a young lad named Lazur. Sometimes the most well-known truth is the greatest lie... For his entire life, Morgorth always knew his destiny was to become the Destroyer of his home world. His birthright as the third seventh son of a seventh son guaranteed such an outcome. Everyone told him so—except his mentor, Master Ulezander. Morgorth will learn that his mentor has been keeping the greatest secret of all: his true destiny.

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Summary: Ever since earning his accounting degree, Cody McIntyre has bounced from temp job to temp job. For almost a year now, he's been the receptionist at Coffee Brew Distributions, and his contract with them expires in exactly twelve days. Hoping to stay with the company, Cody has interviewed for a permanent position that's recently become available. If he gets it, not only will it save him the aggravation of having to find a new job, but he'll get to keep working with his awesome coworkers, especially fun, easy-going, and attractive Shane Wilson. But when someone starts leaving flowers with special meanings on his desk every morning, Cody doesn't know what to think, and can't even begin to speculate who they're from. Considering how hard he's been crushing on Shane, he can only hope he gets good news sometime in the next twelve days, bright and beautiful as all the lovely flowers. Will Cody find out who his secret admirer is? Or will he have to leave the company without solving the mystery?

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Summary: How can something that feels so right be so wrong? Detective Mitch O'Neill is the ideal man to infiltrate the Soldiers of Fury Motorcycle Club. His ex-boyfriend, Peter, is pledged with the club, which provides Mitch with the perfect cover. Despite the relationship ending badly, he's come to terms with Peter's drug addiction and his inability to help. All Mitch wants now is to bring down the Soldiers and the club president, Rocky Cummings, once and for all. Finn Cummings hates everything the motorcycle club stands for, but he's unable to escape his brother's clutches. When Mitch is assigned as Finn's driver, they spend countless hours together, and the saying proves true--opposites do attract. Finn agonises over his feelings for Mitch--the last thing he wants is to involve himself further with criminals, not when he wants to leave that world. Mitch tries to come to terms with falling for a member of the outlaw club he's determined to destroy. If they can survive the fallout from Rocky's violence and the investigation, they might discover it's not a case of opposites attract after all. Lies & Deception is an opposites attract motorcycle romance set in Australia, featuring mild violence and a happy ending.