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Healing Lance

A Warrior's Redemption 1

by M.D. Grimm

Healing Lance - M.D. Grimm - A Warrior's Redemption
Part of the A Warrior's Redemption series:
Editions:Kindle - First Edition
ISBN: B08BY2N844
Pages: 293
ePub - First Edition
ISBN: 9781370972333
Pages: 293
PDF - First Edition
ISBN: 9781370972333
Pages: 293
Paperback - First Edition
ISBN: 979-8668294169
Pages: 261

A baby’s laughter.

A mind uncaged.

Lance is known as Scourge, the warrior in the black armor, the dog of the warlord Ulfr Blackwolf. He was just a boy when Ulfr found him and molded him into the perfect weapon. He slaughters and pillages on command, merciless and numb, devoid of emotions. Then a baby girl laughs at him during a raid.

And everything changes.

When Gust, a talented healer, is out deer hunting and stumbles across a magnificent horse bearing a mortally wounded rider, he has no idea that his life is about to change forever. Gust applies all his skills to his patient, determined to save the rider’s life, and is rewarded when the man opens his eyes.

As friendship, and more, bloom between warrior and healer, so does the danger over the horizon. Ulfr has not forgotten, and Lance must take his first steps on the long road to redemption.

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Pairings: M-M
Heat Level: 1
Romantic Content: 4
Ending: Click here to reveal
Character Identities: Demisexual, Gay
Protagonist 1 Age: 18-25
Protagonist 2 Age: 26-35
Tropes: Antihero, Badass Hero, Friends to Lovers, Interracial Relationship, Love Can Heal / Redemption, Slow Burning Love, Villain to Hero
Word Count: 81000
Languages Available: English
Series Type: Continuous / Same Characters
Excerpt:

The baby shouldn’t matter. But she did.

He easily held her small body in his broad hands. He knew the baby was a girl because she was naked. She kicked her legs as if she wanted to dance, and her wide amber eyes gazed at him in seeming fascination. He stared down at her, wondering why she didn’t scream. Didn’t babies scream? Adults certainly did when they saw him. He didn’t like the sound. All he wanted to do was silence the noise.

The baby stared at him a moment before her mouth curled up at the corners, and she laughed. He froze at the unusual sound. With eyes alight, she grabbed her feet and continued to laugh. It was… all the things foreign to him. It wasn’t cruel or dark but careless, showing a freedom he’d never known. She wiggled in his hands, her pale, pink body flush with life and potential.

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Battle roars and the cries of the dying met his ears again, in stark contrast to the little life he held. He wrenched his gaze away from her and looked around the charred hut and over the collapsed roof. The light from the fires consuming the village illuminated the destruction and the blood splattered on the walls and floor. It was a view he was accustomed to, one he understood. The weight of his sword was one he only noticed when it wasn’t there. He returned his gaze to the baby. This was something he didn’t understand. She was confusing.

She laughed again as goosebumps broke out over her body. She was cold. He scanned the area and spotted a blanket that only had blood on one corner. He wrapped her as best he could, another thing unfamiliar to him, and his black armored gloves made the action awkward. Then he pressed her against his steel chest. He wanted her to survive. He didn’t know why—he just knew he didn’t want her to die.

“Please….”

A young woman lay on the floor at his feet, one he thought was dead. It appeared she had only been knocked out. She lay on her side, one arm stretched out to him, her normally golden skin sickly pale. Her dark brown hair was short, barely reaching past her ears, and one side of her head was caked with blood. The southern part of the kingdom of Grekenus didn’t seem too fond of hair as most of the men in the village were bald and beardless while the women grew hair no longer than their chins.

“Please don’t kill her,” she said, dark eyes wide and dazed. “Don’t kill my daughter. Please, I beg you.”

She spoke in Spart, the native language of the kingdom. He knew it well enough to communicate effectively.

He looked at the baby and then back at the woman. If he wanted the baby to survive, she needed a caretaker. Since the woman was her mother, who better? He strode over to the woman where she struggled to rise and grabbed her arm. She winced at his grip as he tugged her to her feet. He shoved the baby into her arms before dragging her outside.

“What are you—?”

“Silence,” he said curtly. He observed the chaos through the smoke and beyond the fires. The broken dead littered the ground and fire ate everything it touched. A horse galloped toward them, one that belonged to the village since there was neither a saddle nor bridle on the beast. He let go of the woman and pointed to the ground.

“Stay.” Then he strode in front of the horse and held up his hands. The beast reared on her hind legs, neighing in fright. Unlike with humans, he knew how to speak to horses. It wasn’t long before he’d calmed her and had her under control. He petted her neck and muzzle, whispering kind words. The frantic look in her eyes eased, and he led her over to the woman and the baby. She swayed on her feet and had stayed where he told her to, not that he’d doubted she would. The hope for escape let her trust him.

He quickly found a length of rope and looped it around the horse’s nose and neck.

“Get on.”

She didn’t question him this time. She struggled to follow his command, and he realized the horse was just too tall for her to mount without help. He shoved her up, and she sat unsteadily on the horse’s back, her daughter clutched to her chest. She stared at him, and he noted the blood from her head now stained the side of her face and dress. She would see nothing of his face since his black armor covered every piece of flesh, and his eyes were barely visible through the narrow visor slit of the helmet.

“Go.” He slapped the horse’s rear and the mare bolted. The woman leaned over the horse and let the mare lead them away from death.

Another warrior, part of the warband, nocked an arrow and leveled it at her. He strode over and kicked the warrior’s knee, sending the man crashing to the ground with a scream of pain. The arrow flew wide. Another warrior was about to give chase on horseback, and he dashed over to grab the sword from his hand before shoving the warrior off the saddle. A few other attempts were made to stop the fleeing woman, and he stopped them all, causing various injuries and not caring in the least. He had no affinity to any of the warriors in the warband. He had no affinity to anyone… except the tiny girl.

He still couldn’t figure out why. He wondered if he ever would.

He stood there, on the muddy ground soaked with blood, staring after the woman. The smoke burned his throat and stung his eyes. The scent, the noise, the mess of battle he knew like he knew his name. He’d never been curious about anything beyond his current life. Now he did.

He hoped she took good care of her daughter.

“Lance!”

He blinked and turned around. The warlord Ulfr, known throughout the Nifdem Empire as Mad Blackwolf, stalked over to him, expression like a thundercloud, his black, bushy beard and thick head of hair obscuring most of his ruddy face. He wasn’t as tall as Lance, although he was much broader, and there wasn’t a weak bone in his burly body. The quality of his black long-sleeved tunic, trousers, and boots showed a hard but fruitful life, and a few glistening red splatters indicated he didn’t leave all the fun to his warriors.

A few of the warriors that Lance had attacked hobbled after their commander, scowling and muttering curses. All the men sported beards of one length or another. Lance remained clean shaven since the helmet made having a beard quite painful as it tugged on the strands and chafed his skin.

“You will explain to me why you disobeyed a direct order!” Ulfr said when he reached Lance. He spoke in Taris, the official language of the empire. His clenched fists and tight jaw indicated his fury, and the rest of the men and women in their warband cowered at such a sight.

Not Lance. He didn’t feel fear.

Lance took off his helmet, long honey blond hair sticking to his face, pressed there by the constriction of the helmet and sweat glistening on his pale skin. Frosty blue eyes stared at Ulfr, eyes hollow from years of war and brutality. Yet, if Ulfr had looked closer, he would have seen a spark of life newly lit in the void.

Lance tucked the helmet in the crook of his arm and smoothed back his hair, the armor grinding and clanking.

“I didn’t want the baby to die.”

Ulfr blinked. “What?”

Lance frowned. He knew Ulfr had heard him clearly enough. “I did not want the baby to die,” he said, slower this time. “She couldn’t survive on her own, so she had to have her mother with her.”

Men and women gathered around them, filthy warriors stained with the evidence of their raid and slaughter. Everyone wore trousers and tunics, though some of the women chose more form-fitting clothing that extenuated their feminine attributes. The ethnicities in Ulfr’s band were as varied as the colors of their wardrobes. Though none dared wear purple or, worse, silver and purple combined. A person could be killed for being so presumptions. Only imperial royalty wore those colors.

Several men were retying their trousers, having violated their victims before killing them. Lance observed the crowd with a detached eye. He knew what would happen now. He’d known it the moment he made the decision to save the infant.

“You disobeyed me!” Ulfr gripped the collar of Lance’s breastplate and yanked him closer until their faces were inches apart. “You showed mercy when I told you all to slaughter those who don’t give us tribute. These people spat on us as if they were better, and so they deserved their punishment. You’ve followed my orders before, Lance. Why not now?”

“I told you.”

Ulfr shoved him away. Lance stumbled back two steps before standing still, like an oak tree against a high wind.

The complete slaughter of a village or town wasn’t what Ulfr usually did. He wouldn’t raid if they paid him. Normally, if they resisted, Lance would only kill one or two people to make a point, and then the villagers would hand over whatever Ulfr wanted to make him go away. This village had done that in the past, and yet they recently decided to fight back against Ulfr’s protection racket. They paid the ultimate price, an example to all who dared defy Mad Blackwolf.

The village was close to the border between the kingdoms of Grekenus and Cairon, and mostly safe from the ravages of the civil war, since it was deep into the protective territory of one of the kings. And yet sometimes, like that day, warlords got through. Ulfr’s band had had scuffles with army units now and then over the years that gave Lance more of a challenge, but none recently.

“You disobeyed me for a wench and her spawn?”

“I did not want the baby to die,” Lance repeated.

“You will go after her.” Ulfr pointed in the direction the woman had fled in. “You will redeem yourself and escape my wrath but only if you go now.”

“No.”

Every single man and woman there gaped, eyes wide.

Ulfr’s eyes bulged and his face grew red. “You ungrateful maggot! Who raised you? Trained you? Who saved you from becoming crow food or sold into slavery? You owe me your loyalty!”

Lance stared at Ulfr. Yes, all he said was true. But there was no way Lance could ever hold his sword over the neck of that baby and kill her. Her laugh echoed in his mind and seemed to unlock something. Something scarred shut.

No, she would live.

He dropped his helmet to the bloody mud, followed by his sword, which had taken countless lives without mercy or hesitation. He stood before the warriors, those he’d trained and slaughtered alongside. Despite living with them, killing with them, he didn’t know them at all. He never cared to.

“I am done,” he said.

“You are not done,” Ulfr said, voice low with menace and fury. “You are not done until your body burns while you scream. I own you, dog. I made you and I can break you.”

“Come on, Lance,” Mundi said, a man his age, though that was all they had in common. “Don’t be stupid. You’re Scourge.”

“What would we be without the mighty Blackwolf and Scourge leading us?” Magni, Mundi’s brother, said.

A few others chimed in, trying to convince him to reconsider, as if they shared some bond of family or brotherhood. Lance looked at them all, expression blank and eyes vague. They were all murderers and rapists. He, himself, was a murderer of countless lives, innocent and otherwise, though he’d never sexually violated a person. He didn’t battle in rage and greed as the warriors surrounding him did. He did it because that was who he was, it was his purpose.

He neither hated it nor enjoyed it. He was simply good at it.

Lance looked back at Ulfr, met his furious gaze, and shook his head.

Ulfr growled like the wolf stitched on his banner. “You know the penalty for disobeying my orders, for showing weakness.”

“I do.” Lance momentarily regretted ordering his horse to the fringes of the village. If Brutus was here, he could simply escape. But a part of him knew he had to face what came next. A rite of passage. A punishment for the life he’d led.

Ulfr gestured to a few of the warriors, both men and women, and they approached warily, knowing Lance’s skill at killing. He stood still as they removed his armor. He kept his gaze on Ulfr, at the man who had beaten and broken a child into a weapon of war. A man who said there was something wrong with Lance’s mind, something missing or cracked. He meant it as a compliment and claimed it made Lance a better warrior. Whatever it was, it prevented him from connecting with any other human. He cared about no one but his horse.

Then that baby girl.

What is her name?

After being stripped nearly bare, only trousers and boots covering him, Ulfr gestured for him to remove those as well. Lance did without a shred of embarrassment or acknowledgement of his vulnerable state.

Ulfr barked out twelve names. Names of his current favorite warriors. They lined up on either side of Lance, six on his left and six on his right. They all held a weapon, ready to exact punishment. He glanced at their faces. A few were eager like Magni and Mundi. But one or two others showed doubt and fear. The rest of the warband gathered around, excitement and nerves thrumming through the crowd.

Lance took a deep breath of the smoky air that held traces of burning flesh and other unsavory scents.

“Make him hurt,” Ulfr said. “Make him bleed. But leave him for me.”

Lance gazed down the short line at Ulfr. He held his favored axes and smiled maliciously, the same smile as when he’d touched Lance for the first time. The violating touches. The gropes and strokes had grown worse from there and had only stopped when he’d reached manhood. Ulfr had no desire for men or women, only children.

“Let the gauntlet commence,” Ulfr said.

COLLAPSE
Reviews:Linda on Paranormal Romance Guild wrote:

When I got this book to review I really didn’t expect to like it, I especially didn’t expect to love it. A warrior groomed to kill with no regret has his life changed by a small infant girl. Lance (Scourge) was taken at the age of ten by warlord Ulfr and beaten into being the perfect killing machine. He was raped by Ulfr till he was grown and never knew love or compassion, killing was what he was made for and he excelled at it until one massacre of a village brought him face to face with a tiny baby who looked at him and laughed with no fear in her eyes. Her mother lay injured but alive and Lance swore that nothing would happen to this child and he set them off on a horse to freedom.

When Ulfr discovered that the woman and baby were set free he insisted that Lance chase them and kill them both, something he steadfastly refused to do. This was the first time he refused to obey Ulfr and it cost him dearly. He was made to walk the gauntlet and by the end he was more dead than alive. It was only his horse Brutus coming to his rescue and running off with him that saved his life. There was no doubt that if Lance survived Ulfr would never stop searching for him until he was dead.

Gustum (Gust) is a healer and whether it was fate or luck he found Lance and brought him to his healing hut. For days Gust worked on healing Lance and was unsure if he would be able to save this man who for some reason he felt attached to. Gust has no idea who Lance is but he does realize that he is a warrior. Over time the two men begin to care for each other and Lance is determined that no one and nothing will harm his friend. He also knows that he has brought danger into the village because it won’t be long before Ulfr finds him and destroys the village and everyone in it.

For the first time in his life Lance is treated with compassion, he is welcomed by many of the villagers and Gust and his aunt Kissa take him into their home and care for him. Lance realizes that the Scourge is dead and he will fight if necessary to save lives not take them. Caring is a new sensation for Lance something he has never felt before but now that he does he likes it. He will have to face Ulfr and kill him in order to save the people he now cares about, especially Gust.

It was so heartwarming to watch as Lance learned that he was more than a killing machine and that he wanted to prove he was a different man. Unfortunately like always happens once people learn who he is they will no doubt turn against him. My mother used to say it doesn’t matter what you did for me yesterday it only matters what you do for me today, so true and so sad.

I know that some people might find this book a little slow moving but it was just a beautiful story about an infant changing a man’s life and a healer who he begins to fall for. Of course there is no sex and poor Lance has no idea what he is feeling when he is with Gust but hopefully that will change since there are two more books in the series.


What does it truly mean to be redeemed?

Lance, formerly known as Scourge, hopes to answer that question. His journey will take him all over the Nifdem Empire, and along the way he will meet friends and foes alike. With him travels his best friend and great love, Gust, a talented and compassionate healer, and his loyal stallion, Brutus. The three of them will unknowingly set into motion a chain of events that will change their homeland forever. They must trust in themselves and in each other if they hope to make it out alive.

Check out the other books in this trilogy!

2 - Forgiving Lance

3 - Avenging Lance

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About the Author

M.D. Grimm has wanted to write stories since second grade (kind of young to make life decisions, but whatever) and nothing has changed since then (well, plenty of things actually, but not that!). Thankfully, she has indulgent parents who let her dream, but also made sure she understood she’d need a steady job to pay the bills (they never let her forget it!). After graduating from the University of Oregon and majoring in English, (let’s be honest: useless degree, what else was she going to do with it?) she started on her writing career and couldn’t be happier. Working by day and writing by night (or any spare time she can carve out), she enjoys embarking on romantic quests and daring adventures (living vicariously, you could say) and creating characters that always triumph against the villain, (or else what’s the point?) finding their soul mate in the process.