Books Tagged With what - emotion - grief

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Summary: Maverick trauma surgeon Ashton “Snow” Frost keeps the world at a distance, relying only on his three closest friends to keep him connected. But when a ghost from their past returns to Cincinnati, Snow stands to lose everyone he loves. Framed for murder and reeling from attacks on his friends, Snow is pushed to his breaking point. Jude Torres won’t let the doc shatter. The paramedic has been attracted to the doctor since he first laid eyes on him at the hospital, even if the arrogant, solitary man doesn’t fit into any of his plans. One hot, reckless kiss shows that Snow isn’t who he appears to be. And one night together will never be enough. Jude will fight for the doc. Fight to keep him whole. Fight to keep him safe. Fight to simply keep him. Unbreakable Bonds.

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Summary: When Miller and his brother ran for their lives from the alpha of their hyena cackle, he had no idea he would find sanctuary with the enemy or the fact that his mate would be the alpha of that cackle. Orson wasn’t any different from any other shifter. He had yearned for a mate since knowing he had one out there in the world. He just didn’t expect him to come to him in the dark of night, running for his life not just from an evil alpha, but a demon trying to take his very soul. Can the two become one before Miller’s past catches up to him? Or will Orson have to sell his soul to the devil to keep his mate safe?

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Summary: After a year together, wolf shifter Derek Williams and vet Brian O’Donogue decide to marry. All Brian wants is to be legally part of Derek’s family, after his own disowned him for being gay. As far as Derek is concerned, he already belongs to his mate, heart, body, and soul. But their plans are put on hold when Derek discovers an injured young shifter, Tommy, one night while running as a wolf. When they learn the truth behind Tommy’s presence in Washington, they are quickly drawn into a war that has waged in the shadows for decades. Brian, Derek, and their allies must fight against the Knights and their leader, Arcas, to prevent them from attaining an ancient scroll, one piece of a weapon that can destroy all shifters. When worlds collide, no one will be spared. Second Edition with revised text.

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Summary: A recent graduate of the NYPD’s cadet academy, Jimmy McSwain dreams of anything except being a cop. He’s got bad history with them, and it’s not a rap sheet. Years ago, his police officer father was gunned down during an off-duty incident, leaving Jimmy bitter that his killer was never found. Now, grown-up, trained in the art of law, Jimmy decides to embark on a new career: that of private detective. But you just can’t get your own license, you need experience. What happens will lead Jimmy into a part of New York he doesn’t know, realizing he’s the stranger in a neighborhood that lives by its own rules. Skeptical about his job is his mother, Maggie McSwain, but there’s nothing she can do to stop her headstrong son from entering this shadowy new world. As a warm May settles over the city, a twist of fate has Jimmy taking on his first case, one that is a time bomb ready to explode. What he can’t leave behind is the memory of his father, and the silver shield which he earned only out of respect. Can he live with his decision?

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Summary: Trading his glorious merfolk hair for human legs was supposed to be the hard part. Surviving falling in love with an absolute disaster of a pirate captain is another story entirely. Silverfin has spent ages secretly stalking his favorite pirate. Not in a creepy way, but a deeply romantic, “watching him dramatically brood through portholes at midnight” kind of way. Captain Hawk is everything Silverfin has ever wanted: terrifying in battle, devastatingly handsome, tragically heartbroken, and unfortunately, entirely, human. When Hawk’s inner darkness drives him to throw himself into the sea, Silverfin does the only reasonable thing a merman can do. He rescues the drowning captain, steals a single, unconscious kiss, and strikes a bargain with a sea goddess to trade his glorious merfolk hair for a pair of human legs. Stranded aboard the Orca under the sharp, extremely suspicious eye of the man he’s hopelessly obsessed with, Silverfin constructs a flawless plan: win Hawk’s heart, deliver him a legendary treasure galleon, and definitely do not reveal he’s secretly a creature of the deep. Unfortunately, Hawk is a self-destructive menace with a death wish, and the crew thinks Silverfin is completely unhinged. His only ally is his ex-mermaid sister, but she’s got her hands full navigating her own chaotic romance with her feisty red-headed lady-love. To top it all off, Silverfin might have technically cheated the sea goddess out of her end of the deal... and she is definitely coming to collect. Yet, the wrath of the ocean is nothing compared to the fragility of Hawk’s heart. Beneath the armor of swagger and rum, Hawk is still bound to the memory of the man he lost. As their profound connection deepens into something undeniably real, Silverfin faces an impossible choice. He has to convince Hawk to finally leave his grief at the bottom of the sea, all while knowing that if his own hidden identity is exposed, the fragile trust they've built will shatter forever. Silverfin: The Little MerSir is a queer pirate romantasy filled with found family chaos, hidden identities, sea magic, hurt and comfort, emotional healing, bonus sapphic romance, high-seas adventure, possessive yearning, explicit heat, and one extremely judgmental crab. Perfect for fans of the witty, queer and maritime energy of Cat Sebastian and the intense emotional healing and explicit spice of K.J. Charles.

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Summary: NEWLY REISSUED, WITH NEW COVER ART! At the conclusion of SCANDALOUS LIES, Noah Sanders made a startling discovery, one that turned his already conflicted motives into further turmoil, the mystery of his past growing as dangerous as the undertow of the ocean. In Cane’s Inlet, located on a barrier peninsula along the Jersey Shore, the lucrative summer season is fast-approaching, as is the Opening Night celebration of the Medusa Lounge, where Noah has secured a job. But working alongside the Hatcher’s at their exclusive resort is complicated by his own investigation into the scandal that might connect them. With a family secret uncovered during a surreptitious visit to their mansion, Noah’s quest to seek the truth behind his mother’s deathbed confession takes on sudden credence. With the aid of his new lover, Demetri, as well as Cane’s Inlet busybody Cilla Cane, the questions only deepen. When another murder shocks the coastal village, Noah realizes that what’s happening no longer concerns only himself, but perhaps all of Cane’s Inlet. With a mystery dating back to the village’s founding and the raising of the old pirate ship Medusa, no one is safe from being exposed, or from a desperate killer. For Noah, the truth might come at a price higher than he’s willing to accept. SINISTER MOTIVES is the second part in a trilogy that will lay bare stories of the past, and in the end, no one will escape the web of deceit that has defined Cane's Inlet for more than one hundred years. Scandalous, sinister, suspicious, the Cane's Inlet Mystery is a tour-de-force tale of two families, one secret, and, ultimately, one man's discovery of his own true self.

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Emmaline's twin brother, Spencer, has been found dead at a party. The police say Spencer drowned, but Emmaline doesn't believe it. She wants the truth, and when she finds it she wants revenge. Harley and Reed, are Spencer's best friends, they want to help Emmaline find the truth, but they also want Emmaline. As the trio seek out answers they discover an unconventional love, a love that works for them. This is a N/A book, with M/M scenes and group sex. Not suitable for under 18. It is dark and has some major triggers.

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Summary: Javier Fernandez is a climate scientist living in a research station near the South Pole. Since his husband was killed in a car crash, he’s preferred to be alone, and is less than thrilled to have a junior scientist thrust upon him by his rich patron. Col Steele is a trans man fleeing a bad break-up. He is ready for the next step in his career, and eager to spend Christmas anywhere but at home. When a crack in the ice separates the two men from safety, they are forced to come to terms with their own losses and each other. About the Escape From the Holidays series: For the second year in a row, Mischief Corner Books is putting out a winter holiday collection – ten stories revolving around various December holidays: The end of year holidays can get overwhelming for anyone. Things to do. People to see. Last minute work obligations to take care of. Sometimes it’s just easier to escape from it all, running away from the responsibilities and expectations, or ignore the underlying disappointment from relatives who don’t see eye-to-eye with you. Because escaping the holiday grind can lead to new, unexpected paths, and breathe new life into one that’s been stuck in a rut. Giving something to run to instead. Sometimes, getting away from it all lets you know what you really have. Sometimes, taking a chance on the unknown leads to what you really want.

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Summary: Alone in Japan, Finni is struggling against the constant distrust, avoidance, and xenophobia he experiences every day. He misses home. He misses his family. Nightmares come all too frequently because of the stress, and well, Christmas is just not Christmas in Japan. Not how he understands it. Distressed by how miserable Finni is, his roommate, Mamoru, offers to be Finni's family for Christmas. Little does he know how much one agreement would change everything between them, because both of them kept secrets neither ever dreamed were true. 2015 Rainbow Awards, Honorable Mention & Finalist - Best Gay Fantasy

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Summary: Kelton ran. Ran from the father who was supposed to love him. Ran from the lover he’d been caught with. Ran from his hometown of Ellensburg and the only life he’d known. After two years on the streets of Bellingham turning tricks to survive, Kelton found trust a hard commodity to trade. A chance encounter with businessman Alex Martinson after a john left him a room for the night resulted in an offer Kelton couldn’t refuse. In his new role as houseboy and general domestic at the Martinson Estate, Kelton finds himself safe, warm, and fed. Though not understanding the motivation behind Alex’s generous offer of college and a fresh start, he embarks on rebuilding his life. When Billy Winston reappears in his life, Kelton is torn between his responsibilities to Alex and desire for his former lover. Alex Martinson also has secrets, including the business associate he’s desperate to keep Kelton away from. With the culmination of Alex’s kindness and Billy’s encouragement, Kelton must face his biggest fear.

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Summary: Anax Tobias Rogan, ruler of all werewolves in the United States, has never liked Christmas. But this year, his mate, vegan werewolf Kyle Slidell, and their young guard Quinn Boucher are eager to celebrate, and Tobias is trying to find the holiday spirit. He’s even planned the perfect gift for Kyle, one he hopes will revitalize the relationship that has been frayed by Tobias claiming the rank of Anax. A call from Jed Howe, the Alpha who took in Tobias after he was changed as a teen, changes everything. Jed has slipped into dementia and believes the Alpha of a nearby pack is trying to steal his rank. Although Tobias manages to calm Jed, he knows the time he has dreaded has come. Jed is no longer fit to rule a pack, and Tobias must intervene before he causes any harm. But before Tobias is able to stop him, Jed takes drastic and dangerous action against the other Alpha. Now Tobias, battling his own demons, is faced with the most difficult task of his life: Removing the man he considers a father from his rank–permanently. This book includes references to abuse and sexual assault in characters’ pasts, depictions of PTSD, and the off-page suicide of a character.

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Summary: In a relationship that violates rules and expectations, Mayr and Tash have found their perfect match in each other. Despite their fears and difficult pasts, they hope for a shared future with security and a family. When Mayr's secret first love, Arieve, proposes they create that family with her, it seems dreams could become reality. But life is complicated, and so is the delicate balance between duty and love. While Mayr protects the Dahe family at all costs, Tash is determined to succeed as a priest. Both positions require sacrifice, forcing their relationship into painful choices. To make matters worse, criminals lurk in the shadows, seeking revenge on them and those they guard. The life they want risks losing everything—including Arieve and each other. Even if they can have it all, keeping it may take more than they can give.

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Summary: BK #1 – “Dark Soul”: When Dr. Frank Harlan, the head psychiatrist at Black Moon Asylum, took in six-year-old Alec Strom, he knew the child was evil. Yet despite the dark soul residing within Alec, Frank felt bonded to the child –compelled to save him from the darkness consuming him. After 13 years of striving to help Alec, Frank is startled to realize that the care he feels for his patient has stealthily developed into something deeper and stronger than a mere doctor/patient relationship. But when Alec attacks and murders a visiting psychiatrist, Frank is terrified of what will become of Alec –and even more terrified of his own feelings for the disturbed and dangerous young man. Now, Frank sits alone in his office at the Asylum on the night of Alec’s execution, awaiting news of Alec’s death. Alone with his memories of a troubled child he watched grow into a troubled young man…and somehow fell in love with along the way. When the fateful call comes in, he is consumed with sadness and a sense of failure. But the awful night turns to horror when Frank is suddenly faced with the terrifying reality that evil isn’t so easily extinguished. BK #2 – “Black Heart”: For two years, Frank Harlan has kept the memory of Alec Strom hidden deep in his mind – behind a door with a broken lock. Troubled by his attraction to the disturbed and dangerous young man, Frank has left the asylum and now struggles with the daily reality that Alec is still out there somewhere –and that a part of Frank longs for the boy to return. One night, after sharing drinks with his longtime friend –Warden Ron McNeil –who urges him to let go of Alec’s memory and move on with his life, Frank meets a young go-go dancer who ignites his long-suppressed sexual desires. Frank takes the young man home and spends a passion-filled night with the boy… only to discover that not all things are as they appear. BK #3 – “Burning Love”: Frank is horrified when he learns that Alec caused the bar fire—and why he did it. Believing that his best friend, Ron McNeil, was also one of Alec’s victims, Frank is devastated and forced to remove his blinders where Alec is concerned. Unwilling to be the “reason” behind Alec’s deadly acts, Frank is left with no choice but to send Alec away and insist he not come back. Alec displays no emotion in response to Frank’s decision and leaves. Truths quickly surface, leading Frank to doubt his decision to send Alec away. When another fire in a remote area not far from the city is broadcast on the news within 24 hours of Alec’s departure –indicating two dead –Frank is convinced it is Alec’s doing. Realizing Alec is more dangerous out on his own, without supervision, Frank is compelled to find him and take him somewhere away from people –for everyone’s sake, including Alec’s. Yet locating someone who can change appearances at will is like trying to find a needle in a haystack.

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Summary: Spells & Stardust is Scott's first anthology - eight sci fi and fantasy shorts that run the gamut from regeneration to redemption. The Bear at the Bar: A gay fish out of water tale with a pinch of magic. Tight: What happens when your lover disappears in midair? Morgan: The year when everything changed. Re-Life: What if you were reborn in a strange new future? A New Year: They met every eleven years. And each time, Hank's life changed. Repetition: What if you wanted to go back in the closet? Gargoyle: Sometimes you get what you deserve. Sometimes it happens on All Hallows Eve. Avalon: A few bright moments in the sun, stolen from outside time. Most of these stories have been previously published in various anthologies and journals. This is the first time they have all been collected in one place.

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Summary: Can three men from very different backgrounds find a home and a future together? After losing his husband to cancer, Oscar Kennedy has his hands full with their four girls, the house, his job, and his mother-in-law. When he loses his father too, keeping Stable Hill, the old horse farm where he grew up, becomes impossible. Oscar hires Jeffrey Stokes, a slick-looking real estate broker with a roll-up-his-sleeves work ethic, to get it on the market. Russell White manages the day-to-day at Stable Hill. Russ had loved Oscar’s dad like a father, and took on even more responsibility when the old man fell ill. He is shocked and saddened by Oscar’s decision to sell. All three men have a stake in Stable Hill, and it’s not long before they start to invest in one another too. But their complicated relationship doesn’t make having to sell Stable Hill any easier. Will the fragile triad they’re building last when the farm that brought them together is gone?

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Summary: NEWLY REISSUED, WITH NEW COVER ART! All the world's a stage, but in STAGE FRIGHT, Hell's Kitchen private detective Jimmy McSwain learns that life upon it's wicked boards can be a killer. The Harold Calloway Theatre on West 47th Street is home to the new play Triskaidekaphobia, and its playwright has been receiving threatening messages. Theatre owner and lead producer Wellington Calloway has hired Jimmy to investigate, but it's a case not without its complications. His mother is the head usher there, and Jimmy grew up on its aisles. His ex, Remy, is also the costume designer for the show, a man he hasn't seen in years. Further making his life difficult is the mysterious Seetha Assan, who is connected--albeit tentatively--to the case that forever haunts Jimmy--his own father's murder. She may just have the clue to help him finally solve the cold case. As Opening Night for the play looms, Jimmy finds himself involved in a nest of egos and personalities, all while seeking to find the missing Seetha. Toss in his on-again, off-again relationship with Captain Francis X. Frisano, and suddenly Jimmy's life is edging toward tragedy. That's when a murderer strikes, and suddenly nothing is pretend anymore. Life on the stage has turned all too real, and all too deadly. Just like on the mean streets of Manhattan.

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Summary: A fanboy. A pop star. A chance encounter that changes everything. Brandon has been obsessed with The Spectrum for years, but his heart belongs to one of the boy band’s members in particular—Chase Logan. So when he scores VIP tickets to their concert in Amsterdam, it feels like a dream come true. But reality has other before the night is over, he nearly runs over the world-famous pop star with his car. Chase should be on top of the world, but the fame feels more like a cage. The music that once set his soul on fire now feels hollow, and the person staring back at him in the mirror doesn’t even feel real. A moment of reckless desperation nearly gets him hit by Brandon’s car—an accident that sets off a chain of events leading him to an unexpected getaway. With a rare three-week break, Chase seeks refuge in a quiet holiday park, staying in the cozy cottage Brandon owns. There, away from the pressures of fame, he finally has the space to breathe, reflect, and rediscover what music—and life—really mean to him. And through it all, Brandon is right there beside him. But will it be enough to help him fall back in love—with music, with life, and maybe even with the fan who never stopped believing in him? Stay With Me is a heartfelt New Adult M/M Boy Band Romance about love, healing, and the power of music.

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Summary: You can never escape yourself. It has been a year since the death of Brodie ‘Tosh’ Mackintosh’s husband, Harry. Unable to face all the memories of their life together, he moves into the house of his best friend, Darach McNaughton, and is comforted by the local Church of Scotland minister, Sam Carmichael, the middle of the five Carmichael brothers. Sam Carmichael has always been a bit different from his siblings. He’s the only blond in a family of redheads, and the only one with religious beliefs. He also has more than one secret. Can these two men overcome the events of their pasts and find truth and comfort with each other? And, when all their secrets are revealed, will they be forced apart or be able to plan on staying home together?

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Summary: When a love triangle breaks, Steven Everett is left alone to grieve over a boyfriend lost to someone else. Surrounded by friends too tied to Aidan's new lover to give advice, Steven turns instead to a broken and beaten man, Aidan's other ex, Michael Rossier, who also knows the pain of having loved and lost Aidan. Steven's and Michael's confessions grow deeper, each confiding in the other until neither can deny an attraction. But being with Michael feels like cheating, and Steven isn't sure what to do. The connection get stronger every day, and Steven realizes he's facing an impossible choice. To make a relationship with Michael work, Steven needs to make peace with Michael's troubled past. Even more terrifying, he'll have to tell Michael the secret he's never told anyone, not even Aidan. With Michael recovering from yet another surgery, Steven leaves to face the ghosts of the past. He has to be certain. This time, Steven knows, the decision means revealing the secrets of his heart and hoping their fragile feelings can survive.

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Summary: Adrenaline addicted veteran, Vivian Chastain, confronts the man who has been following her for days, only to find he has a message of dire consequence for her. Spurred into action by his news, she barrels head on into a tumultuous and violent series of events. Stoic and stubborn, Vivian lands in the hospital, fighting for her life. During Vivian’s lengthy recovery, her partner is released from jail and the two reconnect, stoking up the flames of their toxic union all while Vivian dives into a blossoming relationship with a new love interest who offers fulfillment and love, if only Vivian can figure out how to allow it all in. Still on the mend, she learns that the coast is not clear as former threats return and continue to endanger her. While she cannot rest easy; friends, her work crew, and customers at the night club where she tends bar provide her with much needed fun, comradery, and support. Vivian wrestles with her temper, her penchant for physical violence, and her overwhelming emotional baggage. Struggles from within and without threaten her existence, and in the moment when death is just a breath away, Vivian’s brother shows up and changes everything.