Behind These Doors

Radical Proposals Book 1

by Jude Lucens

Behind These Doors - Jude Lucens - Radical Proposals
Part of the Radical Proposals series:
Editions:Kindle: $ 3.99 USD
ISBN: B07D6XTRV2
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ISBN: 978-1-912734-01-6
Size: 6.00 x 9.00 in
Pages: 391

A Lambda Literary Awards Finalist for Bisexual Fiction (2019)

London, 1906

Lucien Saxby is a journalist, writing for the society pages. The Honourable Aubrey Fanshawe, second son of an earl, is Society. They have nothing in common, until a casual encounter leads to a crisis.

Aubrey isn’t looking for love. He already has it, in his long-term clandestine relationship with Lord and Lady Hernedale. And Lucien is the last man Aubrey should want. He’s a commoner, raised in service, socially unacceptable. Worse, he writes for a disreputable, gossip-hungry newspaper. Aubrey can’t afford to trust him when arrest and disgrace are just a breath away.

Lucien doesn’t trust nobs. Painful experience has taught him that working people simply don’t count to them. Years ago, he turned his back on a life of luxury so his future wouldn’t depend on an aristocrat’s whim. Now, thanks to Aubrey, he’s becoming entangled in the risky affairs of the upper classes, antagonising people who could destroy him with a word.

Aubrey and Lucien have too much to hide—and too much between them to ignore. Rejecting the strict rules and closed doors of Edwardian society might lead them both to ruin… but happiness and integrity alike demand it.

Excerpt:

Friday, 12th January 1906

The actors below stepped back from their final curtain call, and Aubrey slid his palm from Rupert’s thigh, where it had lain for half the last act. Rupert, whose warm hand had rested absently over his, pressed his fingers and let him go, then leaned forward, looking past him at Henrietta, the only other person in the box.

“Enjoyable, beloved?”

“Ridiculous.” She grinned. “I liked it.”

Two Naughty Boys had been amusing in parts, but mostly so absurd as to be dull: without his lovers’ company, Aubrey’d have left after the first act. But now that it was over, so was their time together, and he wished he could turn back the hours, like the pages of a book, to the moment the heavy asbestos curtain rose on the opening scene. Instead, as the electric lights brightened, he stood and offered Henrietta his arm.

“It’s the energy,” she explained, taking his sleeve to rise from her chair. “The liveliness.”

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“The pranks even you wouldn’t have dared as a child,” Aubrey suggested.

Her eyes gleamed. “That, too.”

Aubrey picked up his top hat and ebony cane and followed Rupert and Henrietta out of the box, through the private retiring room, and into the corridor beyond.

A party of young fellows tumbled out of a box ahead of them and hurtled towards the stairs, voices loud, footsteps muffled by the thick, moss-green carpet.

“Good evening, Henrietta.”

Aubrey startled at the grim voice behind him, and Henrietta’s back stiffened.

“Hernedale. Fanshawe,” Lowdon added.

Aubrey tipped his hat with the silver knob of his cane, since there was no escaping it. “Evening, Lowdon.”

“Edgar.” Henrietta turned with a chilly smile for her older brother. “We didn’t expect to see you here.”

Rupert turned last, reluctance in every move. “Evening.” He glanced up the corridor beyond Lowdon. “Might we hope to see Mrs Lowdon?”

“Sadly, no. She intended to accompany me, but was indisposed.”

“How… unfortunate.”

Aubrey heard what Rupert didn’t say: that Lowdon should’ve stayed at home to keep her company. He disagreed. Lowdon’s absence would be compensation enough for missing any play.

Lowdon kept pace with them down the staircase, towards a roar of voices.

Halfway down, Rupert paused. “My dear. Do you think…”

Aubrey looked past them, into the huge crush-room heaving with patrons—chatting, discreetly flirting, edging apologetically towards the doors.

“Better go back till it clears a bit,” Henrietta decided.

Aubrey’s spirits lifted at the prospect of a few more minutes together: he’d missed Rupert and Henrietta dreadfully over the week they’d been away from London.

Rupert sighed. “Care to join us, Edgar?”

“Delighted, Hernedale.” Thus Lowdon, as might have been expected, poisoned their companionable interlude before it began.

A mahogany table dominated the far end of the retiring room, and upright chairs, upholstered in cerulean blue silk, stood along the walls. An attendant, carrying the remains of refreshments they’d shared earlier, slid out, leaving behind only a neatly folded copy of The Times.

Henrietta stood at the entrance to the box, staring into the theatre, while Rupert laid his top hat on the table, then settled behind it and unfolded the newspaper.

Aubrey closed the door to the corridor. “Something happening?” he asked Henrietta.

“Not a blessed thing.”

Lowdon, seating himself beside Rupert—as though Rupert hadn’t made it perfectly plain he wanted to be left alone—harrumphed and glared at her, as though ‘blessed’ counted as swearing.

Rupert’s lips tightened, but Henrietta ignored her brother. “Just restless,” she told Aubrey.

In solidarity, he set two chairs beside her. He sat, and had barely removed his hat when there was a quiet tap at the door. Henrietta strode towards it.

“Attendant,” Rupert said, without looking up from the paper. “He’ll open it himself.”

Henrietta opened the door anyway.

It wasn’t an attendant.

A well-made fellow in his mid to late twenties—clad in a black dinner jacket rather than proper evening dress—removed his top hat and bestowed an unnecessarily charming smile on Henrietta. “Sincere apologies for the interruption,” he said, “but I thought I saw something fall, and indeed…” He opened his hand. A small, golden mass lay on his gloved palm.

“Oh!” Henrietta glanced at her wrist. “The catch must be faulty. Thank you very much.”

The stranger poured the fine chain bracelet into her hand without touching her. “Be a shame to lose part of a matched set.” He must’ve noted her necklace. “Fabergé?”

“Well spotted.” Henrietta brightened, and they launched into a conversation Aubrey couldn’t follow, because his lack of knowledge of the subject was exceeded only by his lack of interest in it.

Having delivered the bracelet, the stranger really should have left, and taken his improbable charm and light golden tan with him. Instead, he lounged in the doorway of their retiring room, frankly flirting with Henrietta, regardless of the fact that he’d been neither introduced nor properly invited to join them.

But Aubrey couldn’t regret it. Henrietta was happy. And he, sitting unobserved on the other side of the room, was quietly indulging a warm, giddy hum of attraction.

The fellow’s unbuttoned jacket revealed a black waistcoat drawn smooth and tight across a muscular chest, and drew the eye down the lean lines of his body. He stood a respectable distance from Henrietta, but his smile, the humour in his tone, the confidential angle of his body, suggested a friendly intimacy which didn’t exist between them.

“Dash it, Hernedale!” Lowdon’s voice ripped Aubrey’s attention from muscular shoulders. “Look to your wife!”

Henrietta froze, transformed in a heartbeat from languid Aphrodite to outraged Artemis, and the stranger lost his smile.

Damnation! Why shouldn’t Henrietta flirt, if she chose to? But Aubrey had no right to defend her with her husband there. Would never, in any case, have the right to challenge her brother’s humiliating reprimands.

Rupert raised an admonitory finger. “One moment, Edgar.” He skimmed his page to the end, then sighed and looked up. “There. You’re quite comfortable, I believe, Hettie?”

“Perfectly, thank you.” Henrietta glared at her brother, who glared back, his moustache bristling like an irate blond hedgehog.

“As I thought.” Rupert folded the newspaper with care and exquisite regret. “I’m sure I’d have noticed, had you required assistance.”

“Of course you would.” Henrietta glided across the room and laid a delicate, gloved hand on his sleeve. “My dear…” She glanced at the stranger.

“I beg your pardon.” Rupert met the stranger’s gaze. “Do come in. Hernedale. Pleased to meet you.”

Rupert wasn’t averse to turning the social screws when annoyed. Besides, it was the perfect response. Turning the fellow away would have licensed Lowdon’s assumption of authority over Henrietta, and condoned his insolence towards Rupert.

“Lucien Saxby.” The stranger stepped in, offering Rupert a dazzling smile. “Delighted to meet you.” Tucked beneath Saxby’s arm, half-hidden by the hat in his hand, was a riding cane.

The fellow wasn’t dressed for riding. Why the devil must he carry a—

“By my word, Hernedale!” Lowdon rose from his chair.

“Lady Hernedale, may I present Lucien Saxby,” Rupert said, unperturbed. “Mr Saxby: Mr Lowdon, my wife’s brother. Rising in your honour, I believe.”

Flushing, Lowdon swelled to his full, majestic height. “I beg your pardon!”

Lowdon absolutely deserved the mockery. But it put Saxby in a damned awkward position, and while the fellow really ought to have kept to the strict bounds of propriety…

Saxby’s smile faltered, but he gamely nodded a greeting. “Pleased to—”

“I find—” Lowdon jammed his top hat onto his sleek, pomaded head. “I must take my leave.”

“Goodness!” Henrietta murmured. “So soon?”

Lowdon fixed her with an icy blue stare. “I regret, madam. Something in the air here… disagrees with me.”

“I expect you’ll feel much better outside,” Rupert agreed.

Lowdon strode towards the doorway.

“Please convey my regards to Mrs Lowdon,” Rupert added, “and wishes for her swift recovery.”

Lowdon cast him a glare of withering scorn, and stamped ineffectually into the corridor, his tread muffled by the carpet.

Saxby stared after him. “Perhaps I’d best—” He settled his hat on his head.

“Aubrey Fanshawe!” Desperate to retrieve the situation, Aubrey leapt to his feet. His chair teetered. He snatched at it, and dropped his hat and cane.

When he turned back from putting everything to rights, Saxby was watching him.

“Er.” Aubrey clutched his cane in front of himself. “Delighted to meet you.”

Interest kindled in Saxby’s eyes and a slow smile dawned. “And I…” The riding cane drifted upward and nudged the brim of his hat. “…to meet…” He glanced down and back up Aubrey’s body. “…you.” He held his gaze, as warm and intimate as though they were the only two people in the room, and Aubrey the only focus he could ever want.

Aubrey’s throat closed. His face burned. A rapid throb in his neck warned him his pulse was hammering.

“Care to join us, Mr Saxby?” Rupert asked.

Aubrey wrenched his attention from Saxby’s smile.

“Very kind of you—” Saxby faced Rupert “—but I regret, I’m not at liberty to accept, this evening.”

Rupert’s gaze strayed to the newspaper. “Another time, perhaps.”

“I look forward to it. Good evening, Lady Hernedale. Lord Hernedale.” An enchanting smile for Aubrey. “Mr Fanshawe.”

Aubrey clutched the smooth, narrow length of his cane and watched Saxby stroll out.

“For heaven’s sake, Aubrey,” Henrietta murmured. “Go after him.”

After all, Rupert and Henrietta would leave soon, anyway.

Rupert’s attention refocused. “Fellow said he was busy this evening.”

Aubrey stared between them, aware that his judgement was currently… somewhat compromised.

“He might change his mind,” Henrietta urged.

Aubrey looked at Rupert, who shrugged. “Worst he can do is say no.”

Worst he can do—” Damnation! Aubrey lowered his voice. “—is blackmail me! Or have me arrested for importuning, if I’ve misread him.”

“Aubrey,” Rupert said, “you definitely haven’t misread him.”

Henrietta shook her head. “Couldn’t have been clearer.”

Restless, Aubrey strode across the room and looked out. Saxby’s shapely, inappropriately clad form was disappearing down the stairs.

“Damnation!” He cast a desperate glance back at Rupert and Henrietta.

Rupert sighed. “Just go if you’re going.”

“Don’t forget dinner tomorrow!” Henrietta blew him a kiss.

He raised his cane in acknowledgement, then raced along the corridor and down the stairs, searching the crowd below for a black dinner jacket.

 

The Gaiety’s vast circular crush-room—panelled in hardwood and supported by bronze-capped marble columns—still heaved with theatre-patrons. Standing two steps up for a better view, Aubrey stared towards the main doors, and to either side of them. Then hopelessly began a more systematic scan of the crowd.

“That was quick.”

The voice was quiet, but Aubrey almost swallowed his tongue. Saxby stood on the step beside him, hat tipped back at a jaunty angle, riding cane tucked under his arm. He was almost a full head shorter than Aubrey.

“I assume you have a suitable private place?” Saxby murmured.

A private place? Private?

“You—” Aubrey coughed and tried again. “You said you had another engagement tonight?”

“Naturally.” Saxby gazed into the crowd with placid interest, as though casually conversing with an acquaintance. “I was unable to accept Lord Hernedale’s kind invitation, since I’d already accepted yours.”

Aubrey stared at him.

“Shall we?” Saxby tilted his head towards the main doors.

Should he? Oh, Lord.

He’d assumed the offer in Saxby’s eyes was for desire briskly sated in a quiet alley—a place men of his class wouldn’t stumble across them, unless they had business of their own to hide.

A suitable private place…

Now that Saxby’d asked, it seemed churlish to suggest anything less. Rooms could be hired for the purpose, but Aubrey wasn’t familiar with Uranian spaces: they’d always seemed to him more vulnerable to discovery by police than a random dark alley. And hotel staff were suspicious of pairs of men since the Wilde trials.

“Don’t feel obliged, if you’ve changed your mind.” The back of Saxby’s gloved hand brushed his. “It’s quite all right.”

Aubrey looked down into gentle hazel eyes. “Oh. No, it’s—” He should bow out. Instead, he was ashamed he’d ever distrusted the man with those eyes. Besides, while he could walk away, it’d be terribly rude, and—

Damn it all, he wanted Saxby more now than ever.

“It’s this way.”

Saxby searched his eyes. “You’re sure?”

Aubrey produced a confident smile. “Of course.”

He was sure this was the stupidest, most risky thing he’d ever done.

 

By the time they passed the doorman guarding the entrance to Albany’s Ropewalk, Aubrey was distinctly uncomfortable in the trouser area. Saxby had said not a single untoward word, and his deportment was everything that was proper, and yet the tone of his voice, the curve of his lips, the shadow of his eyelashes upon his cheek, all ached with dark promise.

The Albany rule that nobody speak in the walkway and hallways didn’t help. They paced the covered Ropewalk, past side paths to others’ buildings, in perfect, unplanned synchrony, bound by a conspiracy of enforced silence and mutual purpose.

Bringing men home was a risk Aubrey never took, and yet here he damned well was. It was too late to rescind the invitation, and a traitorous part of him delighted in that. This moment didn’t belong to the mind, but to the body, and to core-deep, unfettered impulse.

Anxiety pounced as he unlocked his front door. He turned on the electric light in his entrance hall and stood back to let Saxby in, glancing down the stairs to the basement, across to his neighbour’s door opposite, then up towards the upper chambers; reminding himself that fellows did bring friends home from time to time, especially if it grew late and the friend lived outside the City. Locking the door firmly behind them brought a measure of calm.

“Please, avail yourself.” He indicated the coat-stand as he put his cane in the base, then shrugged off his overcoat.

“You’re Lord Letchworth’s son?” Saxby removed his hat to reveal light brown hair, pomaded and smoothed to perfection, hairline describing a tempting curve behind his ear and across the back of his neck.

Averting his eyes, Aubrey dropped his gloves on the shelf under the hall mirror and turned to the drawing room. “Younger son.”

At the sideboard, he picked up a decanter. “Brandy, Mr Saxby?”

“Thank you.” Saxby stepped into the drawing room, looking around. “Though you might drop the ‘mister’. Under the circumstances.”

“As… might you.”

“Your bedroom?” Saxby indicated the double doors opposite the fireplace.

“Indeed. We might—” His face warmed, and he turned back to the decanter “—adjourn there. Later.”

Silence.

Had he been too forward? He turned. And flinched. Saxby was close beside him.

“Apologies. Did I startle you?”

“Perhaps a little.” Heart hammering, he pressed a glass into Saxby’s muscular bare hand, then picked up his own.

“One learns to be discreet, in my line of work,” Saxby said.

“Of… work?”

Saxby raised an amused eyebrow. “Some of us must work for a living.”

Aubrey’s neck heated. He wasn’t a complete fool. “What is your line of work?”

Saxby sipped his brandy, holding Aubrey’s gaze. Well-shaped lips tilted in a half-smile. “I’m a journalist.”

Aubrey froze.

“With the Daily Mail.” Saxby cradled his glass in one hand.

A cool, crawling sensation under Aubrey’s skin suggested blood was draining from his face. It wasn’t clear quite where it was going, though, since his trousers now fitted perfectly. “Politics?” Hoping he sounded nonchalant, he fumbled his glass onto the sideboard before it fell from numb fingers. “Sports?”

Saxby turned the glass in his hand, watching the amber liquid sway. “Society.”

It all became plain. The charm. The approachability. The deceptive, gentle gaze which had seduced him into inviting the fellow home, and explicitly into his bed.

He clung to the sideboard as the room swayed and his world crumbled. “Do you mean to—to expose me?”

“Certainly.” The gossip journalist looked up with a mischievous smile. “But not in the papers, and only if you wish it.”

Dear God. Aubrey closed his eyes.

“Are you well?” Saxby’s glass clicked down on the sideboard.

“Perfectly.” His lips were numb.

“Do sit down.”

The weight of Saxby’s hand on his sleeve shot a shiver of desire through his abdomen: suggestible flesh defeating judgement.

“I shall do quite well here.” Forcing his eyes open, Aubrey groped for his glass and drained it.

“I expect you needed that, but do sit, now. You’re dreadfully pale.” Saxby slid an arm around his back, and despite himself, Aubrey leaned into him. Really, it was very pleasant to be looked after, even by a Judas.

Saxby steered him to the sofa then disappeared behind him while Aubrey sat with his feet on the hearthrug and stared into the fire.

“There you go.” The damned fellow settled beside Aubrey like an old friend, and folded his nerveless fingers around a brandy glass.

Aubrey’s attention wavered from the glass to Saxby.

“Journalists aren’t demons, you know. Not all of us, at any rate. And I’ll personally vouch for the quality of the brandy.”

This was a farce. An inappropriately dressed gossip journalist who’d entrapped him was recommending him his own brandy, trying to set him at his ease in his own home. But he couldn’t undo what was already done. So he closed his eyes, sipped his excellent brandy, and sank back into the sofa.

Warm fingers nudged his chin. His eyelids shot open. Saxby was tugging on his bow tie.

“What are you doing?”

“Loosening your collar.” Deft fingers plucked the stud from the front of his collar. Saxby rubbed his knee as though it were an obedient dog, then walked away again. “Stud’s on the tray for now, all right? Beside the decanters. It’d just roll off the table.” He returned with his own glass of brandy, sat down, and bestowed a charming smile upon Aubrey. “You’ll soon feel quite the thing.”

Aubrey stared back with a creeping awareness that he must look utterly debauched: lounging on the sofa, brandy glass in hand, bow tie hanging loose, and collar spread wide to bare his throat. Worse yet, that awareness, combined with Saxby’s smile, provoked a dismaying degree of interest within his own mind.

“Do relax.” Saxby rubbed Aubrey’s knee again. “I don’t write about Uranians at all. Only consider: quite aside from any natural scruples, I’d find myself rather short of willing companionship, don’t you think?”

“I—imagine so.”

“Quite. So you needn’t worry.”

He needn’t—! Aubrey stared at him. As though a spell in prison were nothing to worry about! Aside from the disgrace to himself and his family, hard labour might as well be a death sentence.

Saxby’s smile held firm.

Aubrey closed his eyes and let his head sag back. He might as well do as he pleased. The devil take good manners and poise alike: nothing could be retrieved from this situation.

Silence filled the room, but for the regular tick of the mahogany clock on the mantelpiece, and the sigh of fabric against fabric as Saxby drank, or crossed his legs, or whatever the devil he was doing. It was almost peaceful, the turmoil inside balanced by the undemanding quiet.

Fingers whispered across his temple. “Don’t worry, beautiful,” Saxby murmured, “I won’t betray you.”

And then he couldn’t open his eyes, because they’d let the tears out, and that was a humiliation too far. Instead, he swallowed hard: swallowed the tears and unmanly fear and locked them deep in his aching chest.

“It’s the loneliness, isn’t it?” Fingertips stroked his hair.

But he wasn’t lonely: he had Rupert and Henrietta, and he was sure to meet the right woman eventually.

“I feel it, too.” Saxby’s fingers brushed the tip of his ear. “At times I become—so very tired of being alone.”

An aching lump swelled in Aubrey’s throat. His eyes and the bridge of his nose burned. Because there were times—there were—when he felt terribly, terribly alone.

“Hush. It’s all right.” Saxby took the empty glass from Aubrey’s hand and guided his head onto his jacket shoulder. “We’re both here.” Warm breath in his hair. “For now, at least, we needn’t be lonely.”

Aubrey left his head there, leaking slow tears into woollen cloth. Because it was enough, for now. Or at least, it was better than nothing, which was very nearly the same thing. And it was pathetic—despicable—that it was enough; that he wanted a man who might deliver him to the gossips and the law.

“I’m sorry I teased. Truly. Didn’t mean to frighten you.”

Aubrey was supposed to say he wasn’t frightened: it was what men did. But the words wouldn’t come.

Saxby sighed. “I need to move, beautiful.” He lifted Aubrey’s head and shoulders and leaned him back on the sofa. “Just a sec.”

Aubrey cracked damp eyelids as Saxby leaned forward and took off his boots, and then warm hands eased the pumps from his own feet.

Sitting back in the corner of the sofa, Saxby stretched out his legs and drew Aubrey closer, between his thighs. “That’s better.” He urged Aubrey’s head onto his chest and folded his arms around him. “Much more comfortable.”
Aubrey relaxed, breathing in thyme and wool and leather. His belly rested alongside a warm ridge—evidence of Saxby’s arousal, of their likeness—but Saxby only held him. His own cock twitched and swelled, but he ignored it, drifting, instead, in a tranquil haze.

Sometime in the endless now, lips brushed Aubrey’s temple, and he lifted his face to Saxby and parted his lips as naturally as a daisy opening to the sun. Saxby brought his warmth nearer, offering the strength of his arms and the heat of his dancing tongue. Gentle fingers mapped the curves of his face and naked throat, sparking whole-body shudders. A muscular arm cradled him closer. A firm hand stroked downward and unbuttoned his trousers to release his throbbing cock.

And then… Saxby pressed his whole hand, palm to fingertip, along the length of Aubrey’s cock, and held it, warm and safe, against his belly. And kissed him. And kissed him.

Until Aubrey rocked into his warmth, desperate for more.

Saxby’s hand wrapped around him. Aubrey thrust into his strong, sure hold, fumbling over Saxby’s trouser buttons, reaching into his drawers. His fingers discovered a broad cock, gnarled with need and weeping with want, and Saxby moaned into his open mouth.

He slid down, forgoing the delights of Saxby’s mouth and hand for the grounding of his solid cock. Closing his lips over the crown, he nursed slow, salt tears from him, swallowing his loss, one hand coaxing more from Saxby’s body, the other appeasing his own.

Restless hands cupped Aubrey’s face, raked his hair, but never pressed him. A thumb stroked the junction of his mouth with Saxby’s cock, and he moaned, working faster.

“Fanshawe!” Saxby gasped. “I’m going to—!”

Aubrey locked his lips around Saxby’s crown, sucking and swallowing, tugging both their cocks with awkward, aching arms. Saxby’s hips jerked forward and strong hands clamped Aubrey’s shoulders, setting him awhirl in a haze of bliss. He moaned, and Saxby gasped and groaned, and the bitter salt of his release flooded Aubrey’s mouth. Sobbing, half-drowning, but still latched on to Saxby’s warm, pulsing cock, Aubrey thrust his way to giddy, muscle-knotting satisfaction in his own familiar hand.

When he came back to himself, he’d collapsed over Saxby, cheek against his damp, softening cock, and he was weeping. Again. Or perhaps, still.

“Fanshawe,” Saxby whispered, stroking Aubrey’s hair.

He sighed and squeezed Saxby’s thigh, then wiped his sticky hands and face on his shirt-tail.

Saxby urged him upward and settled his head on his shoulder. Aubrey lay, quiet and still, staring into the burning heart of the fire.

“Let me know when you’re ready to retire,” Saxby murmured at last. “With or without me.”

He pressed his face into Saxby’s shoulder, inhaling warmed wool and the sharp ozone of their mutual release. “I assume—you need to go.”

“If you want me to.” Saxby cradled the back of Aubrey’s head. “Or I’ll stay if you want me to.”

Aubrey shut his eyes. One wasn’t supposed to want. Want was childish, demanding. Like tears.

Broad fingers moved lower, massaging his neck where it met his shoulder.

Aubrey tilted his head, unfolding beneath the cosseting. Muscles resigned their tension each by each, until he sagged over Saxby, draped along the solid contours of his body like a cloak of heavy silk, like a cape of airy feathers.

“Stay,” he whispered.

 

COLLAPSE
Reviews:Deb on LGBTQIA Historical Romance wrote:

Once in awhile, you read a book that works to break down boundaries in multiple ways, and with amazing results. Behind These Doors is one of those books. It has a keen sense of itself, and contains some beautiful relationships, set against a background of political change, and without lessening the effects of class division on the various couples and romantic pairings involved.

The various situations in the novel are depicted using language outside the norm. Too often, novels in the historical romance category use the same terms and phrases to convey X situation, and honestly that can get rather old, rather fast. Lucens manages to convey concepts we read about all the time, in ways that don’t come across as redundant. In fact, even for those people that don’t read historical romances often, there are details in this novel that I think they will enjoy.

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Olivia Waite on The Seattle Review of Books wrote:

"Incredibly transporting, a very persuasive snapshot of Edwardian London."

At the start of this book we have an Edwardian-era upper-crust poly trio in a long-established relationship, and one lonely gossip journalist with class consciousness issues. By the end of this book we know a whole ensemble of people whose search for personal happiness and political agendas we’ve had to factor in: members of parliament, militant suffragettes, queer men and women, bigoted family members, snobby newspaper editors, former streetwalkers and their families, valets, footmen, seamstresses doing piece-work, cooks, Boer War veterans, people of color, and disabled characters of both the upper and lower classes. It was incredibly transporting, a very persuasive snapshot of Edwardian London.

That’s not all — there’s a great many other things this book does exceptionally well. Aubrey Fanshawe, our bisexual aristocrat with a tendency toward self-deprecation, is adorable and clumsy and utterly charming. Lucien Saxby, an army survivor turned gossip journalist painfully aware of the gap between his working-class roots and the nobs he writes about, is fascinating as someone who both desperately wants to care for someone and desperately wants not to be depended upon as a servant.

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Kat on TBQ's Book Palace wrote:

"Lucens does a great job of balancing the titillating nature of some of her characters’ encounters... and the reality of everyday tenderness and familiarity between partners."

This is my first time reading a historical romance that features a (normal! healthy!) polyamorous relationship. In an author’s note, Lucens discloses that many aspects of the story are #OwnVoices, and that makes it even more of a delight to read.

The primary story is about Aubrey, a toff, and Lucien, a working man brought up in service. But there are many stories in this story – Rupert, Henrietta, William, Ben, Edgar. And the lovely thing about it is how each character *is* a character. They’ve got their own personalities and motivations. But while there are certainly a lot of tensions between them, there isn’t an overarching murder plot or mystery. That’s not actually a criticism – there is definitely enough in this book to be going on without something like that.

A major source of tension between Aubrey and Lucien is their differences in social class and status. Lucien, having grown up with parents in service, on the edge of the aristocratic world, knows how to fit into Aubrey’s life. His accent is on point, his clothes perfectly pressed, his hair expertly pomaded. And he is desperately aware that, if he chose, he could play the charade of being One of Them. The same is not true of Aubrey, of course. He’s never given a thought to his own valet, or how being a working man does not mean one is struggling. Lucien is consciously aware that Aubrey and Aubrey’s lovers, the Hernedales (Rupert and Henrietta), have a lot of social status and influence, though it takes Aubrey a while to understand what that means practically.

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Camille on Joyfully Jay wrote:

"A book that ticked all the boxes I wanted ticked in a story about polyamory ... I appreciated the deeply thoughtful exchanges that occurred between the various characters. An utterly delightful read."

It’s delightful to have just read a polyamorous story (Badge of Loyalty) and be able to juxtapose this book against it. With this story, I have managed to randomly bump into a book that ticked all the boxes I wanted ticked in a story about polyamory. It’s worth noting that Aubrey, Rupert, and Henrietta’s relationship is on display from page one and Lucens does a delightful job of detailing the dynamic of these three long-time lovers both in public and in private. The new relationship Aubrey finds himself developing with Lucien is then something new and separate from the one he enjoys with the Hernedales, but Lucens provides perhaps even more depth when describing how Aubrey and Lucien react and interact as they learn more about one another.

One of this books strongest pluses is the focus on interpersonal scenes. Our narration is split fairly evenly between Aubrey and Lucien. This means Aubrey’s scenes highlight his values of infinite, but unique, love for all his lovers and acknowledgement that he wouldn’t take on more lovers than he could reasonably satisfy, not just sexually, but emotionally.

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Erin on Diverse Reader wrote:

"There are issues of class, of women's suffrage, and of the cause and effect of sensational journalism. I was thoroughly captivated by the characters and the story and and I'm so glad I gave this book a chance."

I'm going to be honest here (not that I'm not always!), but historical romance is not something I normally read. It's completely a personal preference, not anything against the genre itself. I know many, many people who adore it and read it exclusively. That being said, when I saw the blurb and the cover for Behind These Doors by new to me author, Jude Lucens, I knew right away I'd be giving the book a try. New author and a book outside of my usual go to? Sign me the heck up. I'm always looking for new and different books to check out... it's fun to read something not in your comfort zone every now and then, right? So a book that has a poly relationship, class differences, and a bit of politics thrown in sounded like a book worth taking a look at. And boy was I right.

Right away we're thrown into the upper crust of society and we're introduced to Aubrey Fanshawe, the lover of Lord Hernedale ... and his wife, Lady Hernedale. I'll admit, the beginning of the book took a little bit for me to get into. Not only are there lots of characters and names to keep track of, the verbiage and tone took some getting used to, but once I did, I was thoroughly engrossed.

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Talia Hibbert on Frolic wrote:

I highlighted so much of this polyamorous historical romance that I am frankly annoyed with myself. In 1906 a fancy lord named Aubrey and a journalist named Lucien have a one-night stand that accidentally becomes several nights that accidentally become love. Oops!

“Speak, then, lovely creature.”

Lucien, our working-class hero, is one seductive motherfucker. I mean, goddamn. Give a man a chance, will you? Meanwhile, the noble Aubrey is so awkward and vulnerable, it hurts. This internal contrast to their external positions goes some way to balancing their relationship: emotionally, Lucien needs to coax Aubrey; socially, Aubrey needs to be gentle with Lucien.

"Didn’t it mean something, that a formal sort of fellow used your Christian name?"

The class difference between the pair could’ve been handled so cavalierly, but instead, it’s given genuine thought and respect, which in turn deepens the romance. They have to work in order to learn each other, you know? It is just so… sweet. And meaningful. And I cry every time! Amazing.

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Amy Jo Cousins on Goodreads wrote:

"Sweet and powerful and angry and righteous."

I finished Jude Lucens's Behind These Doors late last night (and read the tie-in short story today!) and I'm still thinking about it. This is a lovely book, deeply thoughtful about queer found families, all the many kinds of love, communicating across class and other barriers--where we can't even see how we're misreading situations and other people because we don't understand how our own ingrained assumptions skew our perspective--politics and women's rights, compassion and service. I also wish we would all model our reactions to conflict and call outs/call ins after the characters in this book, who listen, remain open and vulnerable even as they are challenged about their words and actions, and learn to do better. It's inspiring as hell. Sweet and powerful and angry and righteous.

Em on Duke Duke Goose wrote:

"I really couldn’t put this book down, and I’m amazed that this is the first full length novel from this author – I hope there are more soon!"

Wow, I have never enjoyed 300 pages of relationship negotiations so much??

I went into this having completely forgotten and/or not read the book blurb, so I was delightfully surprised when in the very first scene Aubrey’s committed thruple with the Hernedales is made explicit in the characters’ introductions. I love non-monogamous books but I’m not sure I’ve read a romance that starts with a committed polyamorous relationship and adds to it rather than having forming a poly relationship be the core of the story. Lucien shows up soon after the book starts, and when Aubrey is clearly responding to his bold flirtation, the Hernedales encourage him to run after this dashing stranger who caught his eye.

The book is a wonderful exploration of vulnerability and trust in relationships as Aubrey and Lucien commit to each other. There are mistakes and stumbles along the way, but without drawing it out too much all of them come back to discussion and negotiation.

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Jackie C Horne on Romance Novels for Feminists wrote:

"An unusual Edwardian-set historical that combines rich class critique, sympathetically-drawn characters, and polyamorous relationships to brilliant effect."

Society-page writer Lucien Saxby has little in common with titled and wealthy people about whom he writes—until a sexual encounter with the Honorable Aubrey Fanshawe turns into something more than a pleasurable one-time event. But Aubrey is already emotionally and sexually involved with a husband and wife of his own rank, a relationship which he cannot trust a journalist to keep secret. Or can he? An unusual Edwardian-set historical that combines rich class critique, sympathetically-drawn characters, and polyamorous relationships to brilliant effect.

[On the RNFF Best of 2018 list]

Jess on Love Bytes LGBTQ Book Reviews wrote:

"Lucens’ writing reminds me of the best works by K.J. Charles, who sets the bar for queer historical fiction. Highly, highly recommended, and a must-read for historical romance fanatics."

A good historical romance isn’t easy to master. Only a few authors in the LGBT genre have made a career out of purely historical stories, and I hope Jude Lucens is now in that successful group, because this book is wonderful.

Taking place in the strict Edwardian society of 1906, the story alternates between two third-person main characters—Aubrey and Lucien, both of different classes and different temperaments, who want different things in life and expect different things from their worlds. But after the type of fling that would’ve been a one-off for them both, they can’t seem to stay away from each other, and their worlds start to meld in strange ways. Aubrey’s best friends and lovers, Rupert and Henrietta Hernedale, adopt Lucien into their social circle, further complicating their delicate dynamic, and Lucien begins to resent the idea that he’s supposed to want something from an “nob” besides love and affection.

First of all, the relationship dynamics would be unconventional in a contemporary romance, making them even more intense in a historical setting. The first explicit love scene in the book is a fairly domestic bedroom scene between Aubrey, Rupert, and Henrietta that absolutely glows with both eroticism and pure love.

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Nancy Yeager on Eight Ladies Writing wrote:

"A love story through and through"

Recently, I had the absolute pleasure of reading Behind These Doors by Jude Lucens. This Edwardian polyamorous romance is one of my favorite reads of 2019 thus far.

Here’s a bit of an open secret of many authors, me among them: when we’re deeply entrenched in own stories, it can be hard to wrap our heads around other books in the same genre. I tell you this because – as I finish writing my fourth historical romance in a row and am about to start the fifth – for a book in the genre to turn my head right now, it has to hit all my HEA buttons. And, boy howdy, Behind These Doors does that. Here are the top five reasons I fell in love with this book.

Exquisite historical detail, deftly rendered.
The Honorable Aubrey Fanshawe and Lucien Saxby meet in London in 1906. These men are from different classes and lead very different lives. Part of their journey is observing and learning about these overt and nuanced differences in each other’s lives, and understanding the fraught nature of being bi/poly men in that time and place. Of course, as these characters make these observations, so does the reader, which immerses us in this specific time and place.

There are other evocative details woven into the story fabric, from Saxby’s workaday world, his bleak rented rooms, and the women’s suffrage meetings he attends, to Fanshawe’s leisurely life, difficult social obligations, and history of abuse at boarding school. So much great character is revealed through these details without ever hitting an anachronistic note.

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About the Author

Jude writes historical romances about marginalised people affiliating and building family in the face of restrictive, often punitive, social norms. Her debut novel, Behind These Doors, is a Lambda Literary Awards finalist for Bisexual Fiction.

She's a bi, demi, polyamorous, pagan WoC as well as a spoonie and a full-time carer. However, she doesn't claim to speak for any other person in those communities.

For several years, she was a 1st Century Roman and Early Mediaeval re-enactor. Her primary focus was combat and target archery, and her secondary, living history and craft demonstrations—mostly fletching and ring-mail making—as well as explaining period clothing, weaponry, armour and basic combat techniques. She has hung up her bow and cedarwood arrows, and now makes silver and bronze jewellery instead.


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